I'll Fly Away

Awakening - Mae

When I close my eyes to this paradox place
I'll fly away, far away from here
I'll get away and dream
Dream of you

When it's all said and done
And the night has come
I'll disappear, take flight on the wind of wishing you were here
Fading light, like a star whose life has been gone for years

And I'll fly
Fly across the sky
And I'll leave
I'll leave it all behind
If you'll be here
Here with me tonight
I'll be fine

Yesterday ended on a strange note. The beginning of the day was warm, though by the evening it had become cold and windy. Wednesday was the first time I was to see Timmy's new Si shell. I met up with Danny and Jasmine with Mike to find that Danny's car did not turn on. Of course something had to happen then! Timmy picked them up and we went to the yard, somewhere in Carson? After seeing his old car on its side, missing about 80% of its original parts and the new electron blue shell sitting on stands and jacks, it became cooler because the sun began to descend at a more rapid pace. After the light in the sky had almost completely gone, we decided to leave. The only problem was that because Danny's car had broken down, we had one too many people and had to squeeze 4 people into Timmy's exploder. For some reason, I gave Danny the keys to my car and he backed it out of the dirt lot. By the time had gotten back on asphalt, it sounded like he was messing with the gas pedal, because I could hear it idling erratically...and then Danny got out of my car. My idle was messed up again! Christian drove it with Danny riding shotgun to Krispy Kreme to his dead car. Everyone else left, leaving Mike, Danny, and I waiting for a tow truck to appear to pick up his car. Mike and I got Subway and ate it over my engine hood because it makes a nice table and keeps the food warm. The tow truck did not show up for about a half hour, but when it did, it was quickly determined that the alternator was dead. The car was lifted onto the bed of the truck and hauled off. That's when I decided to go home.

Today, I was on the verge of becoming sick because of the exposure to the sudden cold from yesterday. I took the day off from work and cleaned up my room.

Obstacles

This week has been rather stressful. Treading the borderline between a C and D, Physics is proving to be more of a problem than I had originally thought it to be. This weekend is geared more to studying the previous chapters and doing the new chapter's homework, as well as the three pages of Pre-calculus that was assigned to me today. Sunday is a work day, so not much work will be done on that day. I made it a point to make up the third Gateway for Pre-calculus on Monday with myself, so I'm hoping that I get around to studying for that as well.
Today, I've barely gotten a chance to rest. I've been busy since the moment I woke up this morning. Thursdays are always so busy.

the rest of this semester is the final push to improving my current grades.

At least I know what I have planned for the spring semester. I plan on taking Architecture 120, Math 190, and Speech 1 or 3. I've currently racked up 27 transferrable units not including this Fall semester.

I always feel that I'm always so troubled. I've noticed that I've become more and more easily stressed over the smallest things. My energy levels have dropped and I don't know what's wrong with me. Maybe I'm finally losing it, but that'll have to wait until after this semester is through.
I've lost my train of thought and I don't even know what I'm writing anymore.

Wow Already!

What amazes me is how fast time has been passing these past few weeks. What amazes me even more is the weather. Honestly, I don't understand it at all. It's November, yet it's still hot. I can't wear my sweater all day. I can't wait for it to cool down a bit more. I'd become a lot more appreciative about the weather.

I haven't had much to say about anything lately, if you couldn't already tell. Life's been coming at me fast and I really don't know how to explain any of it. Maybe some day I will come up with it. I'm just trying to take it slowly, one day at a time. I always find myself looking forward to my weekends because they're always a lot of fun for me. I'm learning not to take my time spent for granted. It's a gradual process, but I think I'm starting to get the hang of it.

So what's on the agenda, you ask? Looks like home cookin', beach, winging it! I'm quite excited for this weekend. I also have three pages of Pre-calculus homework and a chapter's worth of Physics, but I have a lot of time to do it :D

:)

Right now I'm supposed to be studying for a Pre-Calculus exam, but I still have about three hours to study so I'm going to take the time to catch up with you all about what's been happening lately.

So thanks to Pauline, I have discovered extravagant long term parking around UCI which is about a mile and a half from her apartment. As a result, each time I decide to park there, bringing a set of wheels such as a skateboard is a must.

So how did last Friday go? I'm glad you asked.

So I've learned a few things other than the parking thing, which I've mentioned above. I learned that I need to take my own pillow. I've learned that the shuttles do not run on weekends. I learned that making food really isn't that hard and that I'm just lazy. I learned that Pauline is really good at air hockey. I learned that I need to re-learn how to skate. I learned that landing on Income Tax on the first dice roll in a game of Monopoly is certainly a bad omen for the rest of the game. Finally, I learned that bed head is a lot of fun.

I arrived at around 1PM on Friday and did not go home until 6:30PM the following day. Those hours spent there felt like a dream, almost. It feels like it has been a while since I could enjoy myself so much like that in a long time.

Walking around in a park in the middle of the night. Air hockey at 1AM. Board games. Sitting and talking about anything that comes to mind. I realized how much I missed the simple nothings of sitting around on a lazy day and talking.

About the pillow, I suppose that it was a little too big, leaving me unable to sleep due to the slight discomfort. After jumping in bed at 3AM, I did not sleep until 6:30 when the room started to become a little brighter after I took a corner of my blanket, folded it into a pillow and used that. I ended up getting a grand total of about 4 hours of sleep. My mom woke me up at around 8:30 by calling me, which I gladly answered...I fell asleep right after the call, only to be woken up again at 10:30 for the last time.

Sunday was my hell day, essentially. Work...not fun when tired!

By Monday, I was already wishing for the week to be over. The day was just like any normal Monday. Wake up. Go to Physics. Pass time until Architecture. Go to Architecture. Get out of Architecture. Go home.

It's interesting that my dad, a 19 years' architect, is trying to convince me to go into law. It must be some kind of warning. As a result, I'm going to be looking more into both fields to see what the benefits of both fields are.

I went with Rikio and Danny to the midnight release of Fable II, which Rikio wanted to buy. After finding at the gamestop that we went to at the Ghettoria was closed, we went to the one by El Camino and waited there for a half hour, only to find that we had to go to back to the Galleria one. Another half an hour passed and we were let inside to wait another half an hour before gamestop opened their doors. Rikio got the game and we got out and went home.

Half an hour later, I'm still typing this and I don't know why it took so long to write. Pre-calculus needs my attention so I'm going to get back to that now.

Physics is a love/hate relationship

So it's around 1AM and I'm studying for a physics exam at 9AM about Work, Forces, and Friction. Conservation of Energy is not a very fun concept to grasp with the whole Kinetic/Potential energy bull. By now, most people are sleeping, except Khiem, whom makes sporadic appearances on AIM. Never mind he just signed off. I'm only awake right now because I drank a cup of coffee and I'm feeling okay. In the back of my mind, I'm dreading the near future of today. I must wake up at 8AM to be at class by 9. I will most likely be able to leave early, so I'll take that time to head over to the library to study for a Pre-Calculus gateway exam. I hate those exams with the passion of a thousand burning suns and their mothers. After taking the gateway and being assigned a retarded workload of homework for that class, it'll come time for me to go to work from 5-10:15. I enjoy closing shifts on this day because I can have a bento waiting for me on Friday morning, waiting to be warmed up. However, tomorrow, I am dreading such a thing because I will most likely be pretty tired. I don't particularly enjoy working while I'm low on energy and I'm sure that I speak for many others as well. Once I am through with work, the glory will have arrived: well earned rest time. I plan to wake up at a late 9AM to go shopping some, fill up the gas tank, do whatever else I need to do that might come to mind while I'm doing these activities, and make the 45 mile trek to Irvine to beat Pauline at Monopoly.

Monopoly. Yes. The board game. We have an active bet for a single game of Monopoly. Loser must jump into the swimming pool there fully clothed. Sounds like fun (Only if it turns out to be a retarded warm day again, that is). So I won't be losing this event. Food making will be in order and there will be fire, death, knives, and vegetables.

Parking for UCI is most enjoyful when the close parking only allows you a pathetic 60 minutes of permit time. However, it has been established that there is more long term parking (up to something like 3 days? It's some rediculous amount of parking time) about 1.75 miles away. Danny is supplying me with a skateboard and my plan is to skate over. I do hope I don't forget anything in my car this time. So, to sum this weekend up, I have homework, Monopoly, studying, and work in mind.

Physics has me on a leash right now and I've been given the confidence of several supportive (and not so supportive :P) friends that I'll do just FINE.

That is the sort of confidence that treads in dangerous waters. Not to be overconfident, I remain awake, still on a coffee boost, attempting to study.

Alrighty, I'm going back to studying. Wish me luck for the exams because I'll need it!

And I should probably make a post about Knotts Scary Farm from 10/10/2008. It was quite a fun time :O


New music:

Unearth - "The March"
Haste the Day - "Dreamer"
Slipknot - "Self Titled"
Slipknot - "Iowa"
All That Remains - "Overcome"
Papa Roach - "Infest"
Papa Roach - "Getting Away With Murder"
(Yeah getting all my old music back if you hadn't noticed!)
Myproof - "Shining Stardust"
Myproof - "The Sky of Destiny"
Bleeding Through - "The Truth"
Bleeding Through - "Declaration"
RSP - "DICE"
Supe - "2nd Place To None"
Whitechapel - "This is Exile"
Whitechapel - "The Somatic Defilement"
Killwhitneydead - "Nothing Less, Nothing More"

Wow that's a lot since the last post of new music, actually.

Underneath my Chest, I Couldn't Put it to Rest

I decided to name this title after a line found in Cobra Con's song "Would You" because I didn't really know what else to title this entry. So it's been since the 22nd I guess since the last time I wrote anything. Things have changed even more since then. Imagine that. Life had been going in slow motion until recently and then suddenly everything is changing.

Starting with the most recent events on Saturday, I got a new sweater, some shirts, and a haircut. I had lost one of my rubber stoppers on my plugs so that night I got my lobes widened to 6ga from 10ga. I can now stick toothpicks and stuff through my ear now. It's tons of fun lol

Friday was a day played completely on a whim. The only thing that was actually planned was taking my car in for a service. So yes, my hazard switch is now fixed. I took it in during the morning with Danny and we had originally planned to go to CSUSB to visit German, who happened to be in Redondo anyways. We picked up Tin and went to my house and we hung out for a bit. I stared at craigslist for about 30 minutes before Rikio came by. Danny decided that we would follow an earlier stated suggestion by me: to visit Irvine to find a place to get free parking near UCI.

We left within five minutes of that, on our way to Irvine via 405 freeway. After we arrived in Irvine, I showed them the wonderful parking that UCI has for visitors and their policy. I showed them where I had previously parked. "Four, Five, Six, Seven, Eight," I counted as we passed by some visitor parking spots, some with a car in it, some without. The last car in the row had people in it. We parked over in the 8th spot while Rikio said "Look it's Pauline," which he later said that it didn't register to him that it really was her until after he had said that. It indeed was Pauline and her friend Michelle. What we did end up doing was going to a nearby plaza to grab some food, where only Tin and Danny ended up eating, the fatties. After eating, we decided to go home so we could get stuck in the 405 traffic. I guess I fell asleep in the car for a while, though I said that I was "on the verge of falling asleep." I was awakened by the ringing of my cell phone to see that Pauline was calling me and she asked if I was interested in bringing myself and friends to see a movie later. Fuck yeah I was down, though out of all the people in the car, only Tin ended up going. I took Morgan as well that night.

I had to get my car. It was 4:15 and my car was now ready, just in time for rush hour traffic. I had no ride and my dad said he wouldn't take me until he had to go out that way at 7. So I did wait. Morgan said we would arrive at my car by 7:43 and we got to my car at exactly 7:43. "My predictions are flawless!" he said. From there, we took the wrong freeway and we got off in Westwood. We had to find the 10 East freeway. I called Pauline to let her know that we were lost. Morgan said we would arrive at her house at 8:47. After driving down Pico for what felt like a millenia, we found the 10E. For the last leg of the freeway trip, Morgan was steering while I was working the pedals as we weaved between cars, trying to make it to her house by 8:47. The funny thing was that Morgan didn't even know where Pauline lived. We arrived in front of her house at 8:47. "My predictions are flawless!" he boasted again. We went to the movie theatre in Alhambra with Pauline, Iris, and Michelle. We saw Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist, which was interesting to see Michael Cera playing as a SxE guy. It was an enjoyable movie and contained much different humor from Superbad, which I thought was good.

11:30. The night was definitely not over. We decided on going to a haunted forest up in Pasadena. I called Mario to get directions to the place while Morgan drifted up and down the parking structure we parked in with my car. Morgan took the helm for the next portion of the night. Iris had to go home, so it was just five of us. We all went in my car.

I must say, it is really strange to sit in the back seat of your own car while it is in motion. I thought riding shotgun was weird...

We found the place and ran into another group that was just leaving. They said it was really creepy. I couldn't wait to go in there. The only problem was that I was wearing sandals. Michelle was too. While I talked about being rolled the previous adventure with haunted places, a bright, but familiar floodlight lit the forest where we walked with another group.

This time we did not get arrested. We were only told to leave.

So we did leave. The rest of the night was aimless driving all through LA county. Morgan took us through a canyon run in Pasadena, pushing my car to its limits. After nearly hitting a large deer and pack of opossum, we left the canyon and drove on the freeway and went back onto the street and somehow ended up on the other side of downtown where Slauson met the 110 freeway.

We did eventually drop Michelle and Pauline off and I did not get to slip into bed until around 4:30. It was a hell of a night. It was very easy to tag that night as an adventure. If we had another car of people, it would've been insanity.

I'm sure there are parts that I left out but that was Friday. It's nearly Tuesday now.

This week is hell week.

...Until Friday at least :D

Life. Discuss.

This is my third attempt at writing this entry, as I was in dire need of creating an excuse for myself to not do these activity sheets for Pre-calculus, despite having a test tomorrow. However, these things will be completed and turned in, and I will be ready for this test.

Compared to where I was six months ago, things have progressed a great deal. Priorities will change often, as they are now. Work is becoming ever so important, but at the same time, work is creating a lot of stress in my life. Although I didn't think that it would be an incredible burden, the three classes that I am currently taking is beginning to take its toll.

But will I let this apprehend my drive?

Fuck no, I won't.

Just means that it's time to go into overdrive. It's just a bunch of information that needs to be stored into my head. It's no easy task and it's a big task, but the reward is plain: a piece of paper that shows proof that I can handle the pain and that I'm ready for thirty more years of it!

I can't write anymore because I'm simply too tired to think any further. Anticipate a part two!

Make up your mind!

Is it hot or is it cold? The weather can't seem to decide. Mornings are starting to feel as fall/winter should be, but as the day progresses, it begins to feel like a muggy summer. The weather should just make up its mind and be just one or the other.

Last night was the first time in a LONG time that I had sleeping issues. I went to sleep at 12:30 and woke up at least four times before 4AM. Alarm went off at 6AM and here I am now, writing this for you at 7:20.

Last night, I worked closing shift and I discovered a new benefit of being the last cashier to leave...the El Dorado of bento. So in my excitement of discovering this news, I forgot to punch out before I left work haha.

I've been at my uncle's apartment while he's in the south Pacific, taking care of the place, as well as having another stressful week. The stresses never end, apparently.

Physics exam Thursday, which I haven't studied for and two Precalc exams on Tuesday.

I didn't pass the first gateway, but it's stupid when you have to get 9/10 or else you fail. I just have to keep taking it until I pass.

The worst part about all this is that it will probably get worse. First thing's first though. I need to get through this, dammit.

I've Been a Busy, Bustling Bee

So as expected, school has started and as a result I've been rather busy. Kept at bay as expected. So, I'm taking Physics 2A, Math 180(Pre-Calculus), and Architecture 150A. Alongside with those hours of lecture, I have to do 4.5 hours of Architecture lab per week whenever I choose, and a three hour lab extending from 9AM-12:10PM on Thursdays. I've made myself available on all days of the week for work except for Mondays and Wednesdays, which I will be there until 6:15PM for Architecture labs.

So how about that social life? Lately, I've been hanging out a lot with Morgan and Danny and that's been pretty interesting, considering these two love to eat. We've been playing some Soul Calibur 4 at my house and I guess we have our main characters pretty much established so we've been having some fun with that. (My main is Seong Mina with Xianghua secondary ;D)

So how do the MSword adventures fare? I'm glad you asked. Actually, because of my lack of availability and free time at home, I've been unable to advance at all, along with the lack of inspiration holding me back. Soon enough, I'll be back on track.

So, why S2000? I've put a lot of thought into it and the most that I can say is one simple, three lettered word: "Fun." I want to be a Honda S2000 owner because I think that it would be just darned skippy to be able to drive one of those two seater monsters. And it's interesting that I choose to stick with this vehicle dispite how much modifications will cost for it and insurance and gas and the like but even so, this drive for such a machine revolves around the three lettered word, "Fun." I think it'll be worth it. Just need to keep working for it and I'll be getting speeding tickets all day long!

Check out my facebook for new updated photos.

New Music:
Hollywood Undead- "Swan Songs"
All Shall Perish- "Awaken the Dreamers"
After the Burial- "Rareform"
Abigail Williams- "In the Shadow of a Thousand Suns"
Atmosphere- "When Life Gives You Lemons, You Paint that Shit Gold"
KoRn- "Greatest Hits Vol. 1"
Kuraki Mai (倉木麻衣)- "Fuse of Love" "Delicious Way" "Fairly Tale" "Perfect Crime"
Smashing Pumpkins- "Greatest Hits"

No Clue What to Title this Blog

Well recent days have been revolving around work and such. Normal days of hanging out with ppl. I saw Tropic Thunder and Pineapple Express since the last blog, which were both pretty entertaining. Tropic Thunder really took upon the cliche Vietnam war movie style, while making it hilarious to watch.

I've gotten my first paycheck from work so I was pretty stoked about that.

However, I'm as poor as I've ever been with nothing more than gas cards and my driver's license in my wallet.

Today was a planned epic day by Khiem involving tasers and a syringe full of lotion which looked like semen.

The first time I saw this syringe was when Khiem busted this interesting story about a new sperm bank wing being added into the military hospital. Then he pulls out the syringe and squirts you with this lotion, which quite accurately resembled semen.

He got Morgan twice, got me once, got Tin on the lip, Calvin in the eye, and Jelly in the mouth twice.

He got a lot of people. He also managed to get my car.

About the taser, Morgan tased himself several times, which I have captured on video. Khiem got shocked and I don't know if I mentioned it or not, but Morgan got tased several times. Getting tased by that particular taser isn't horrible, but it's still enough to deter you if you're trying to mess with the person with the taser.

The driveby with the airsoft guns was successful and Khiem was thoroughly satisfied. He had finally gotten his revenge for the time back during our Senior year when Khiem was "pregnant" after eating at Cheesecake Factory. Shelly poked him in the stomach and was in pain. He swore he would get her back in the future. That happened tonight.

All in all, today was pretty excellent, even if Korean BBQ managed to completely deplete my wallet. Props to Khiem for making it happen.